5-1=4. When I was in grade school and I quickly grabbed onto that little reality I never thought that it would have a profound impact like today. This morning we woke up at 4:45 and got our foster daughter out of bed and with her two suitcases drove her to the airport to board a plane to New Jersey never to return. Glenna and I talked about it the night before how no matter what perfect scenario we could make up in our minds, no matter what movie we’ve seen with adequate goodbyes, there just isn’t a way to say it without your heart literally splitting in two.
It wasn’t very Hollywood perfect. It was quick and over before we could even really get a handle on what was even happening and just like that she is gone from our lives. Where do we turn? What do we look to? It has been wonderful to know that our friends and family are continually lifting us up in their prayers, and that the one they are speaking to on our behalf is able to fix this big fat mess that we are right now. I’m sure that I will say more in coming days but today I have two things that have come to mind. One is a lyric from one of my own songs (yes a I realize how narcissistic that seems) and the other is from Romans 5.
A song called Lord of Glory that we sang last Sunday in Awaken stems from Psalm 73, builds to a chorus after posing several points of repentance
“I will look upon the face of Jesus
and watch the whole world melt away
nothing stands within Your glory
Death is laid to waste”
Behold the Lord of Glory”
For us today knowing that nothing stands within the light of God’s radiance lets us know that includes the pain we feel right now and as we draw nearer to God that it’s going to someday be a new kind of “okay”
Second thing to share is this from Romans 5:1-5
“Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.”
On a day when we woke up and walked through this pain and then to also hear of the pain of so many up in Connecticut and the awful things that transpired today, it makes me long long long for our heavenly home.
thanks for reading / thanks for praying.